Day 13 in 2022

Even in a pandemic the laundry does not stop.

Day 236 in 2020

Sunday chores...laundry...swimming gear and masks. It's a weird summer.

Day 215 in 2020

Day 111 in 2020 (isolation day 37)

I've always had a specific shopping day each week. I'd make a meal plan for the coming week, list the things I needed from the store, and tackle said list all in one go. I liked that routine. Though the day of the week would change from year to year based on Calvin's activities and other demands on my schedule, there has always been a shopping day. Now it's been weeks since I set foot in a physical store. I still put together a weekly meal plan and create a list of needed ingredients, but these days I'm doing all my "shopping" in our basement pantry and freezer. Silver lining—I can do it in my pajamas.

Day 116/365

Life must go on. The next morning, the first full day without, all the small things and realizations—these are the things that get you. It’s not making the decision, or handling the bill, or even the moment they stop breathing. It’s the empty collar in your hand as you leave and the empty bed at home. It's the bark free pizza delivery, and having to eat the bowl of popcorn without help. It's leaving the Dogs with Cancer support group on facebook because it cannot help you anymore.

And it's having to go on with your life without them, because if you don't, life will go on without you.